Treatment Update...

Hi everyone! Most of you know that the IUI was not successful and we were disappointed. We had so much hope that the treatment would work and it when it didn't we took the news pretty hard. We just had no idea what to do next because we thought for sure it would work. I will admit that the emotions got the best of me and I found it hard to talk to my family and friends about my feelings. I felt a huge sense of failure and that won't make sense to most people because I had no control over the treatment, but in my own mind it felt like I had failed. Matt was so supportive and he held me when I needed to cry, tried hard to cheer me up and kept pushing me to think about what we were going to do next, because giving up was not an option. I love him so much for being my rock during all of this.

When we realized the treatment didn't work we scheduled an appointment the same day with our Doctor to discuss our options. She explained that the chances of IUI being successful were less than 25% and if we wanted to increase our odds we needed to think about IVF. We hadn't really thought about IVF and now we needed to make a decision based on the information she provided in 20 minutes regarding the procedure. Talk about information overload! I remember the doctor leaving the room so Matt and I could talk it out, I just cried. I couldn't believe we were sitting there talking about this, it hit me all over again as if she had just given me my diagnosis for the first time. It took Matt to tell me that we could do this together! He's right, we can do this and we are doing this!

We immediately got a plan from the doctor and she and her team have been phenomenal with all of the questions we have regarding the treatment. We started with bloodwork and then an IVF training class on how to do the injections correctly. I am working on mentally preparing myself for all of these injections, I have a phobia of needles and last month only needed TWO injections the entire month. I will be receiving TWO PER DAY this month so no time to be scared! I will also be taking oral medications along with the patches and of course the injections. I will take any amount of medications to have our baby. I have the best husband and family anyone could ask for so we will get through this!

Treatment will start on Monday and will take 2-3 cycles to complete so I will do my best to keep everyone posted on our progress. I appreciate all the phone calls and text messages we received this past week, it meant a lot to both of us. Prayers would be greatly appreciated as we continue our journey.

Love,

Lauren & Matt

The Results were Negative

Hi everyone... If you've been following our blog, you know that we had the blood pregnancy test performed this morning and the results were negative. We already knew because my cycle started yesterday so it was no surprise when we received the results. I'm emotionally overwhelmed and very sad that the treatment was not successful. We met with our fertility specialist this afternoon to discuss our options going forward. We have made our decision, but we are still emotionally overwhelmed. We have a lot to think about and will share our decision once we've had time to process everything ourselves.

Blogging has provided me with an outlet to express my feelings and share our journey, but right now I need time to think and deal with my emotions. I will post again when I feel ready. Thank you all for the prayers and kind words.

Love,

Lauren & Matt

"The pain you've been feeling, can't compare to the joy that's coming." Romans 8:18

Halfway through the TWW...

Hi everyone! Just a little update, we are officially halfway through the "two week wait!" One week from today we will find out if the IUI treatment was successful. We have been thinking positive thoughts and praying that it worked and both have a good feeling.

I started on a new drug last Wednesday to supplement the progesterone hormone that I must have been lacking. The side effects are not awful, I would explain them to be more like really intense PMS symptoms. I will take all the negative side effects in the world! I will stay on the progesterone until we complete the pregnancy testing next Monday. The time has really flown by and next Monday will be here before we know it. We have a busy week ahead with work and planning for Rylan's 7th Birthday Party on Saturday. We are so excited to have our families here to visit for the weekend so that will definitely keep us busy and make the time pass even faster.

I just wanted to update everyone and express my appreciation for all the prayers and kind words we've received over the last several weeks. The support we have received means the world to Matt and I. Please keep the prayers and good vibes coming. We will update the blog on Monday after we receive our results.

Love,

Lauren & Matt

Two Week Wait...

Hi everyone! Dr. Hudson said it "went beautifully!" The insemination took 2 minutes followed by laying still for 10 minutes before getting up and then we were done! It was pretty neat to be able to watch the sperm being pushed into my uterus on the ultrasound monitor. We left and I have been home relaxing for the day and catching up with a friend, just relaxing... We have a great feeling about everything and will continue thinking positive thoughts along with our daily prayers.

I will begin taking progesterone daily on Thursday until we go back to the doctor on March 16th for a blood/urine pregnancy test. It's going to be the longest 2 weeks of our lives, but we will stay busy to try and pass the time.  We are so blessed to have such a wonderful support system of family and friends so I'm sure we will be fine. Please keep us in your prayers over the next couple weeks.

Love,

Lauren & Matt

Tomorrow is BABY DAY!

Hi everyone! Not much to update as far as our treatment goes, except for it took almost an HOUR for me to let Matt give me the "trigger shot!" I'm terrified of needles and I got a little freaked out, but it wasn't bad. I felt a little silly for getting so worked up over nothing, but i just let my fear get the best of me. Oh well, I'm just glad that part is over!

On a happier note, we are scheduled to inseminate tomorrow morning! We will be dropping off Matt's little swimmers at 8 am for preparation and off to breakfast we will go while we wait for the lab to prepare his semen for insemination. We should begin the procedure around 9 am and it only takes 20-30 minutes. To say we are excited is a huge understatement... We have been waiting patiently for tomorrow and it's finally here! So that's all I have for now, but tomorrow's post will be up as soon as I get a moment to sit down after the procedure. We appreciate all the prayers as we begin this beautiful journey tomorrow.

Love,

Lauren & Matt